Have you ever been in a position where you’ve had to hold part of yourself back? I keep finding myself in these positions. Especially with guys.

I’m a flirty, complimentary, genuinely nice person by nature. I love to see people smile. I LOVE to make people feel good about themselves. I am the ultimate cheerleader in people’s lives. But, it gets me in trouble. Some guys don’t understand that I’m that way with everyone. Or, they’ve just never had someone be really nice to them. Sometimes I feel like I’m unintentionally leading guys on.

So, when I meet someone that I can tell is interested in me, I find myself holding back that part of myself that shines. I stifle the urge to compliment and praise. I try to laugh a little less at their jokes. I try to avoid contact and communication.

It never works. That part of me always comes out. It’s who I am. And, when I know I could be nicer…when I know I could be sweeter and make someone’s day better, I can’t hold back.

Sometimes, I wish I was a cold, unfeeling bitch. It must be easier when no one wants to approach you…when you take and never give.